Goodbye for Now

July 8th, 2010
Tears rolling down my face
Burning my cheeks, slipping off my chin
Landing in my lap, making little water spots

I never thought it would be this hard to have to say goodbye
But as you keep reminding me, it is not forever
Being away from you for more than an hour seems like torture
Six months seems like eternity with not seeing you

Letters will have to do for a while
Hand-written deep, sincere letters filled with such emotion
Cherishing each word and every signature

With what you have done for me
It would move mountains
You have demonstrated true love
And shown me what real beauty actually is
You have held my hand through so many things
And pulled me through the hard times

We have shared so many moments together
Experienced new things with each other
Smiled and gazed into one another eyes countless times

The love I have for you is unconditional and true
It will be everlasting throughout eternity, nothing will change it
The passion and care my heart contains for you
So intense and indescribable through words

I know you will make it through
You are strong and will do what’s right
I am proud of you beyond all comprehension

I love you with all my heart
Forever
But only did I wish
Saying goodbye would not be so hard

You Never Let Me Go

April 9, 2010
Because you have given me a calling
A passion for something more than I could have imagined
You have set your hand upon my life
Stirring my spirit with a new fire
You have placed dreams and potential in my soul
Allowing me to reach higher and go further than before
Similar to how a potter molds a beautiful clay vase
From something that was once plain and nothing to look at
You have shaped my life, my spirit and soul to be something beautiful
When at the beginning, I was lost, negative, hideous deep down inside
You have brought me through trial and turmoil
Helping me through every moment
When I felt I wasn’t strong enough
You always took my hand and kept helping me trudge forward
No matter how powerful the storm
You never left me go
On no account letting me go loose
To be lost on my own
You have made something that was so unpleasant
Into something that has taught me so much
In your word you said, that you would never let me go
For how many times I denied it and cursed your name
You always stuck to your word, and never let me go
I now thank you for what you have done
Bringing beauty from pain
Making my life so much more

The Fight for What is Right

April 9, 2010
Shallowness is so well known
People; Americans are so blind to the surroundings
We take for granted everything we have
Rarely doing something to help one another
Tragedy, turmoil, tormenting the people around us
But who cares?
So many people are selfish, moving on with their lives
Acting like everything is peachy keen when it is anything but that
Americans, we are so fortunate
Food, shelter, love, and hope for many
Jobs and money, and so many opportunities
Yet, complaints are carried through air
Will we sit and be silent?
Are we going to do nothing?
Watching around us, as people are tortured?
Dying from disease
Raped, abused, neglected
Losing hope, lost sights of love
Teens dying, people taking their own lives
One life lost, one less soul
Will we watch in wonder?
Not doing anything to make a difference?
Would someone just care?
Would someone just take a stand for what is right?
Murdered for morals
We have freedom
Open opportunities
Letting them slip by
Places of hope and help
We take all this for granted
Will our eyes ever be opened?
Open to what goes on around us?
Sometimes things are hard to endure and think about
But we need to take a stand for what is right
Lend a helping hand for once

Controlling Love

March 14, 2010
You try to protect me, but only end up hurting me
Molding me into a mini you
I want to be me!
Never perfect, what have I done?
Locking myself in my room, sitting in the dark
Please, stop controlling me
Living a double life, it seems so hard
I can’t act like I’m okay another day
Putting on a smile, when inside I feel like a monster
Tears escape from my eyes, slowly slipping down my face, burning my cheeks
Do you not understand?
Are you blind to what hurts me so deeply?
I need to be me, but I fear what you will do
I am not perfect, I’m sorry
I am not you, I’m sorry
I apologize for trying to be my own individual
You’re not guiding me, but controlling me
Please, just listen, don’t lash out
I just want to be okay
But sometimes that seems so far away

Striving for Perfection

March 29, 2010

Never being perfect

Not good enough for myself

Not good enough for anyone else

Always being wrong

Tears streaming

Burning my cheeks

My face turns red

Anger raging inside of me

I just want to be my own person

But no, it is impossible, it’ll never be allowed

Am I warped?

Are my thoughts too paranoid?

Are my emotions too extreme?

Am I taking this the wrong way?

I will never be okay

Always trying to be something that I’m not

And even then, I fail to succeed

Standing to fall

Trying so hard

Sometimes I wonder; “What’s the point? Why am I here?”

Is this only another to chance to get hurt?

Rules, regulations, restrictions

That is what everything is made of

Unable to move

In fear of doing something wrong

I don’t wish for anything good

I will only disappoint you…

Again… and again… and AGAIN

Memories in the Making

September 14, 2010

The sweet words you say

Hoping we will be married some day

Looking into your eyes

Trying not to be the one that cries

You have always stayed strong

You will always belong

You will always have a special place in my heart

I never want to be apart

My life is no longer gray

Praying that I am going the right way

You still give me butterflies

Making me feel as happy as the blue skies

The days without you feel so long

So I decide make up a new song

Trying to make for a fresh start

With you being so far apart  

The nights we stay up together

Makes me feel so much better

I really like you

No matter what we go through

The friendship we own

Let’s make it known

The secret is out

That’s what we are all about

I feel as light as a feather

I don’t care about the weather

Everything I say is true

Looking through a new view

I hope what I have shown

Clears up all the unknown

For I am not in doubt

Because you I would never want to be without

Original Pictures to break up the Poetry

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Baby’s Last Breath

July 18, 2010
Abortion.
The killing of innocent life.
Murdering a baby human being.

Using a needle to take the life of a little one
It squirms, trying to escape
If only it could speak, it would scream out, “Please don’t take my life away!”

With one final breath, the heart beat stops
Filling the room with unbearable silence
Unaware, the baby did not have a chance

From one spontaneous, in-the-moment action, a child is now dead
Not wanting to take the responsibility of the consequence of a previous choice…
A living person who could have had so much potential is now lifeless

Do the pieces of the puzzle not match up to you?
Are you blind to the fact that an unborn baby is now cold, pale, and gone forever?
Killing a person because you did not want to take the liability for the immaturity of what you
have done?

The baby’s heart was so pure; as white as freshly fallen snow
With a spirit like the wind of a breezy spring day; refreshing, fulfilling
Having the possibility of a glorious future, dreams, and hopes that could have overflowed all the
seas

This young baby never even had one chance
It did not have the opportunity to experience its first breath before its last.

Summer Night

June 13, 2009
Hot and humid
Up late at night
Darkness covers the area around me
Except for the moonlight shining through my window
That glitters and glimmers
Leaving a whitish touch on the objects in my room
And the little blotches of light in the sky
The stars I wish upon night after night
Hoping my summer dreams will come true

Fans blowing my hair around
In the black
Now laying here in my bed
Curled up in a thin sheet
Yawning in my sleepiness

Resting my head on a pillow
My eyes slowly drift shut
As the heat engulfs the silent room

You Never Let Me Go

April 9, 2010
Because you have given me a calling
A passion for something more than I could have imagined
You have set your hand upon my life
Stirring my spirit with a new fire
You have placed dreams and potential in my soul
Allowing me to reach higher and go further than before
Similar to how a potter molds a beautiful clay vase
From something that was once plain and nothing to look at
You have shaped my life, my spirit and soul to be something beautiful
When at the beginning, I was lost, negative, hideous deep down inside
You have brought me through trial and turmoil
Helping me through every moment
When I felt I wasn’t strong enough
You always took my hand and kept helping me trudge forward
No matter how powerful the storm
You never left me go
On no account letting me go loose
To be lost on my own
You have made something that was so unpleasant
Into something that has taught me so much
In your word you said, that you would never let me go
For how many times I denied it and cursed your name
You always stuck to your word, and never let me go
I now thank you for what you have done
Bringing beauty from pain
Making my life so much more