March 29, 2010
Never being perfect
Not good enough for myself
Not good enough for anyone else
Always being wrong
Tears streaming
Burning my cheeks
My face turns red
Anger raging inside of me
I just want to be my own person
But no, it is impossible, it’ll never be allowed
Am I warped?
Are my thoughts too paranoid?
Are my emotions too extreme?
Am I taking this the wrong way?
I will never be okay
Always trying to be something that I’m not
And even then, I fail to succeed
Standing to fall
Trying so hard
Sometimes I wonder; “What’s the point? Why am I here?”
Is this only another to chance to get hurt?
Rules, regulations, restrictions
That is what everything is made of
Unable to move
In fear of doing something wrong
I don’t wish for anything good
I will only disappoint you…
Again… and again… and AGAIN

I recognize this